Lifting Depression

[haha... bro, thax man, ur great. well, i wasn't frowing much todai, juz wasn't smiling. i do smile a lot now, agen... but i'm still a bit upset. i noe u hate me saying dont worry... but hey, i can't say anythin else. lotsa luv, sis.]

Today was a lot better than Friday and my weekend. I actually laughed and had some great times. {thanks to all my frenz out there, who provided infinite support through the bad times. I felt so loved when everyone was trying to cheer me up. Thank you so much guys, i lurv you all too. I hope i can be as good a fren as u guys when you're down. I love you all so much.} Then, TCP was also acting normal, so i tried to go with the flow, instead of bringing up the upsetting news. (ok.. i juz had a dei javu juz then... freaky as) But it felt extremely awkward, acting like everything's the same. It's not. I rather be happi thoe... so i juz covered my emotions a little today. I don't exactly want to make mah frenz worry agen... so yeh... [soz bro, i can seriously onli say dont worry]

Well, now that i'm lifting my depression, school work weighs it down agen. ehehe... so much to do... and currently going quite broke, with so many b'days and all. it's worth spending money on frenz thoe... i juz wish i had more. Working at home doesn't seem to provide enough, but i don't hav time to work outside either. well, depression period of hui's lifetime now! And it's not juz normally depressing, but ultimately!!!

i'm cheering up thoe, so it's ok. I think. Juz don think about it, and convince myself to b happi. It's hard though.

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